Everyday is a day that I can say

I keep my head above the waves

Fear is an intense, strong, inhibiting, motivating force. Being in control of my feelings and capabilities to function simultaneously is something I have yet to master. During younger days, many of my friends were highly emotional beings and I never understood why daily functions were such a struggle. Now that I have worked to unleashed the deep emotions encased within, I am realizing it is quite a feat. It is a struggle to not allow those emotions to overwhelm you, like an internal struggle. To allow them to be present and express themselves and at the same time carry on with obligations and daily duties.

In dealing with this pinnacle point in my life, fear is peeking out and wanting to perform.

Fear of change

Fear of being hurt

Fear of making mistakes

Fear of repeating mistakes

It is fed more easily than other emotions or forces and somewhat impossible to ignore. Unlike other emotions, fear is not something one can be with and work through, or at least I have yet o do so. So, instead I try to focus on the positive and like an unruly child in today's society, I acknowledge it's presence but pay it no mind. With time, unlike an unruly child, the fear will pass, and I will see there was no reason to feed such a thing.