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So, I'm sitting here, at work, thinking about the future... something I think too much about. Granted I'm not thinking years down the road, just a few weeks, but none the less my brain feels as though it's at max. capacity.

This whole graduate school thing, I thought was supposed to be nice and simple, like undergrad. You apply, if you have good grades, you get in... 'nough said. Oh, but that is not the way it works, see. One must obtain an overwhelming amount of money, after paying for undergraduate school, because the cost of school is much more expensive. Thankfully, in science and some other concentrations, one can get funded to go to graduate school. Their education is taken care of and they are given a measly stipend in which to live on.

As before, I thought this was attainable by getting good grades and applying ones self. But oh no.... there are hidden requirement specific to each school. Sometimes, my pessimistic attitude gets the best of me and the train of thought scampering down the 'why bother' path, takes hold. It seems like it's been too hard and I have had to put forth too much nrg to get this far. I do not want to walk away,but it makes me wonder, 'when is it too much, when does one reach the threshold of applying too much nrg?'

So, I have initiated the graduate school process... it is time to see what the universe thinks about my suggestion.

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