I wish this time would pass.
However, there is too much to get accomplished in the meantime. I just wish I could get outa this funk. I feel like I'm sad and depressed and bringing others down. Don't blame them, I wouldn't want to be around me right now.
Just don't get it. I keep trying to tell myself it's b/c I need to get away and I haven't done so in a long time. But, I do not think that encompasses the melancholy state I'm in. Whatever it is, it needs to go. This is the 21st century, people don't have time for that kinda sh*t. We have things to do and tasks to be stressed about... I mean, really!
So,there is no specific point to this post, perhaps it is a cry for help. At this point I think the only thing that will help me is time. More of it and for it to go by quicker would be a nice start.
Hell, I'm going to be 27 this year and don't have a clue as to what I'm doing... how's that for uplifting. Yeah, I got a ton of them.
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i'm sorry to hear things are hard for you right now, emotionally or otherwise...
time helps, sometimes, distractions help... but i guess the latter involves turning into a blissful state of self-inflicted amnesia that can turn into a habit... works in the short run, at least, but there's always the reality coming to bite you in the ass when you last expect it. i know i may not be doing the best job in responding to your outcry, i am not sure whether a comment like "been there, felt that" would help any. the only thing i could tell you that might not make much sense right now is that it really DOES get easier as time passes...
as for turning 27 and still not having a clue what you're doing... how about shifting your outlook a bit and asking yourself whether it really is necessary to be DOING anything at all? there is no such obligation from the existential point of view... so whatever you end up doing comes as a nice bonus to your existence, especially when it's something you enjoy doing and something that makes you feel good.
i have missed your company and our mornings at a cup of coffee. i will be returning to the states sometime soon, and maybe we'll meet again?
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