Sometimes, I feel like I just want to be alone. Like I can subsist by myself and I want to prove it. To be contained in my own thoughts with interaction with others going as far as common chit-chat, a mere waste of time, really.

But then, I know myself and the yearning for company that will surface, inevitably. For some, perhaps they have their family and that's all they need. People who love you but don't necessarily like you or share common interested and perspectives.

For the first time in my life, I realized how someone could become completely encapsulated with their significant other and let all their other relationships slip away. It's easy, as most self-centered actions are.

Perhaps it's because I am tired that I feel this way. Wanting to interact with friends but having nothing to say. No nrg to give nor interest in pursuing. Though it's a decision to be regretted, I am still entertaining... the thought of being alone, a feeling so familiar.... more than a lover's touch.

Though it will be a state of mind I will surface from soon. It's an interesting thought.... to play with and mold, like a chunk of clay.