Two cents

In listening to a 'This I believe' essay this morning, I heard a trite phrase:

in life, you are only given what you can deal with

and my thought process stopped and pondered this over a few times... it has never sat right with me and I realized it doesn't make sense.

If a person is confronted w/ something in life, if they do not cope or deal with it in some way, it leads to their demise. So in effect, the phrase cannot be justified. People deal with what comes into their life, not because they are equipped to handle it, but because it is a matter of survival. In order to survive, and possibly attempt to thrive, one must overcome such obstacles. Although the phrase may be comforting to some... in reality, it is pure nonsense.

Soaking in the aftermath

It is really amazing... it is like I have begun living a whole different life. Yes, I still have to edit and turn in my thesis, but it somehow is not an all consuming entity anymore. I am actually looking forward to working on it, surprisingly. Overall, I just feel like such a happier person, as before it took nrg to be happy, now when I stop - and take a breadth, everything feels good.

There are still issues to dealt with and problems arising, yet it all seems better in some way. I am very grateful... sad that I brought it upon myself [grad school @ ECU that is] but thankful it is over and done with. It sounds trite, but each day no longer feels like a burden, it feels more like a blessing... and more than anything, it is so much easier to breathe.

The day has finally come.....

and how sweet it is to feel the relief
of 4 years of trudgery

In a mere 40 minutes, the work that has consumed my life, my existence, my happiness over the past four years peaked and stopped. Of what am I speaking... my thesis defense... that which has led to the end of many things close to me and has brought a few joys along the way. My mouth agape w/ astonishment, I was finally able to breathe.... and it felt good. Now, with only some editing to do before it is officially finished, I feel much happier, lighter, and finally in control of my life again. Like spring flowers all that is possible is sprouting everywhere. It feels good to be happy.