All morning I've been anxiously waiting for the battle inside my head to seize. I've been going back and forth between to want and desire to drive down to FL for the tx-giving break and staying here to work, study, and have some personal time. It is one time that I am angry I cannot have my cake and eat it to and like a child, I'm on the verge of throwing a tantrum. Guess these reactions to life's dilemma's never stop, we just decrease the intensity with which we display them.

Although a little voice in my head keeps piping in with soon, I may be further away and will not have the ability to travel for the holiday, but the rational side consistently drones on about the lack of financial funds and the added stress that will be waiting when I return to write a paper and take a test that I did not study for or research.

So, I have accepted the logical conclusion and will not be traveling down, now I must embrace this decision so as to actually use the time effectively and not waste it, then I will merely hate myself for not driving down.