swampland

River Park North, NC

This is the house I want to buy.... this is my first house. Matthew came accross it the first time we went up to NC. When wewereup there this last time, we went by it and the woman selling the house let us go in and look around.


It is so beautiful... The house was built int he 1950's and the outside is cedar shingles. I want to buy it very badly. The house is perfect. It's small and cozy with 2 bedrooms, an upstairs loft/study, and an unfinished attic. There is a detached garage with a wrokshop area and a nce sized open yard. I don't think it could be more perfect, unless I already owned it.

backseat passenger

on the road....

This past weekend's trip to North Carolina was a success. I secured an apartment for June; the lease papers came in the mail today. In the meantime, before moving, aside from packing and getting my belongings up there, and working extra at work, I am going to need to start studying for the qualifying exam. Around the end of August, before fall semester starts, every incoming master's student has to take the qualifying exam.

This exam shows the department in what areas the student is lacking, so they can then take the necessary classes to make up those deficiencies. Come to find out, only 60% of students entering the Master's, with a Bachelor's Degree in Geology pass the exam. So, I am going to study my ass off and probably fail. But, I just hoping not to fail too badly, so that I do not have to take an overwhelming amount of undergraduate course work or more than 2 semesters worth [6 classes]. I wouldn't mind if you kept your fingers crossed for me. In August, I can use all the positive thoughts I can get.

For those of us born in September we are supposedly:

Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

For some reason, it seems all to familiar.

It's nice to know that things are looking up for others as well, these days. New unions, new babies, new jobs, and new lives to be started. As with everything else in life, each of these positive things is attached to a resulting end or negative action. In order to stay happy, we think the positiveness of the new thing outweighs the negativeness of the resulting end.

It is all a matter of perspective. As a society, we put more emphasis on the good and bad events on life when really, they are all the same. We try to think it's good because the nice feelings one feels from such an event is greater than the feelings one feels in conjunction with the bad aspect of the situation. If one feeds into the bad feelings, then the situation or event would be considered bad.

However, people seem to live for the thrills. It's a roller coaster ride and the rushes or high points are the good times and the valleys or low points are the bad. But it's really all just a matter of perspective, because if one thinks of the anticipation occurring when you reach a valley, anticipating the peaks and rushes, it's really not all that bad............ right?

Sometimes our eyes play tricks on us, or perhaps it's our minds, warping our perception......

eNtRoPy & sUbTlY

Life is acts under the rules of entropy and I am one who likes to keep things orderly, together, and unified. It is natural that things are in a constant state of motion, though I find it more closely resembles a roller coaster ride than the shifting sands on a dune. There are abrupt increases and drastic downward shifts. I have still yet to become comfortable in the seat assigned to me. I enjoy a good ride every now and then but when it comes to relationships, I prefer a steady state with gradual changes...

It seems that all I would like, regarding the people in my life, are those who is on-par with me. Those who have similar interests, beliefs, and goals and are working towards making those things happen. However, there is a catch. Even when people are doing so, there is no relevance unless we are active in eachother's lives. What's the point of having "friends" that one does not hear from or see for long periods of time. With distance it becomes harder to keep up a relationship. It no longer becomes a thing of convenience. However, some distances are not too far. Yes it takes a little longer, but is about the same as a drive to work. It becomes painful for an individual, who values that 'friendship', enjoy sharing time, look forward to the conversations, and planned adventures, and would like to continue to see it grow. Therefore, the nonparticipating activity of one party is perceived at hurtful and causes much pain to other individuals.


Some times it simply comes down to letting it go...... even when it is something you highly valued and considered a very precious time in your life.


So, GOOD-BYE!


Thank-you... for the wonderful memories, which bring much sadness, reminding me of what will never be again, and the hurtful feelings of being neglected.

04.05.05
Passing Thoughts

sitting here
basking in the sun,

nowhere to be
nowhere to run.

pondering thoughts
of you and me,

what does the future hold?
what's meant to be?

relationships begin
distance grows,

weight on one's heart strings
or fear of being alone.

time spent together
smiles shared,

time spent alone
many questions appear.

will time tell
or do i know...

my weighted heart
is not its own.

Hmm... so, I seem to go for conservatives.... interestesting. Guess it's fitting for the present. Although, I am not interested in politickin' much, I can see myself getting worked up over something important.

Your dating personality profile: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Sensual - You are not particularly shy when it comes to your sexuality. You know what you like and do not feel inhibited.

Your date match profile: Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need. Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape. Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Liberal 2. Athletic 3. Sensual 4. Adventurous 5. Outgoing 6. Wealthy/Ambitious 7. Practical 8. Stylish 9. Big-Hearted 10. Intellectual

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Conservative 2. Athletic 3. Practical 4. Intellectual 5. Adventurous 6. Big-Hearted 7. Outgoing 8. Stylish 9. Traditional 10. Wealthy/Ambitious

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Which one of these is not like the others?

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'They misunderestimated me.'

Thanx

Well apparently, I am an Anarchist at heart. Go Figure............

Anarchism		100%
Democrat		83%
Green		83%
Socialist		83%
Communism		67%
Fascism		17%
Nazi		0%
Republican		0%

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mmm..... a tasty treat

fUn iN tHe tEnNeSsEe sUn

Today, I bought my tix for Bonnaroo and am now quite excited! Ah, the freedom plastic brings...... So, this is going to be my first large festival. Aside from a largely disappointing day at the Warped Tour [NOFX was on the ballot to play, but did not make it to that show] and a day at the Suwannee River Music Park, both many moons ago, I have yet to experience the true hippiedom of camping & music in an open field.

The concept was a bit intimidating at first... thousands of people on a farm, what is the environment was distracting from what was important - the music? But then, I thought, why not? I'm going to be going off to start Grad School and may not have the time, company, or financial comfort to attend such an extravagant event. So, out came the plastic and my tix was secured.

Last week, I watched The Motorcycle Diaries and it reinforced the motivation to take a road trip. Something I've been wanting to do for a long time. It appears that this may be the perfect time. A time of transition, a time to move.... forward. Perhaps it is a good time to enjoy some new scenery, meet some new people, and enjoy why this life is worth living.