cOntrAdIctIOns

As the daylight hours become shorter.... I seem to be turning more introspective. Perhaps it's not the time of year but previous events but I seem to be needing some quiet time. Strangely enough I am yearning for company and wanting to surround myself with activity. It seems there are many contradictions in my life presently, including relationships. New found free time is wonderful but I also have tons to do; I don't understand! Why is life so confusing. Sometimes, I feel I make it confusing and other times I feel I'm just a character in a play with no control over who is directing.

Well, I have purchased a tix for California. I'm leaving on December 23rd and will be back on January 1st. It will be nice to finallly get out there, since I've been wanting to visit for awhile now. Richard and I will be traveling together and we'll be staying in San Francisco and Santa Barbara. Our friend Erik lives in San Fran, and Stu (my brother-in-law's brother, who is awesome!) lives in Santa Barbara. He's going to UCSB for marine science and has offered to show he around the campus and stuff. I emailed a proff there who's working on some interesting stuff.... so, who knows, I may not want to come back. It will also be great to see Erik. Erik is Alana's cousin, who used to live in Miami. We met a few years ago and hit it off well. It will be great to see him again, I always have a great time with him. Exploring California with Richard will be fun as well.

It's hard for me to justify traveling for pleasure. So, I have decided that the purpose of this trip to visit friends an explore possible colleges. We will overlook the fact that winter break is not the optimal time to visit schools ; }